I was scrolling on Instagram and saw that Snoop Dogg had posted the title of this post. It got me thinking about how easy it is to complain about things we don't have, instead of actively working to achieve the things we want. I've learned in my adult life that it takes a lot of work to get the things we want. Everything seems to be a step by step process and sometimes it takes a long time to make progress. I've also learned that there is ALWAYS a way. It's about how hard you're willing to work to find that way and not giving up easily when things don't go as planned. If you know you could be doing more, then do more.
"Free thinking" seems to be the new phrase that's trending but the people who use that term the most are people who I really don't consider to be free thinkers. The reason why is explained below. Again, this is my view on what free thinking is.
I liked that post about positive thoughts, believing in yourself and lessons out of struggle.
I wanted to share my experience.
So I'm bipolar. I didn't know I was till I got diagnosed. All I knew was that I was destroying every aspect of my life and I couldn't control it. It used to make me bawl my eyes out. I'd always be really angry at the world for everything I was going through.
No one really knew what was happening to me. The only thing that was apparent is that I was always fucked up on something. I'd self-medicate for the highs and lows with different drugs but at the same time that would catapult my manias and my lows.
This bipolar shit has sent me to hell and back. I've been on the hospital bed with the doctor calling my dad saying "your son is dying." I've ruined countless friendships, couldn't keep a single credit in 2 years of schooling, I was homeless living out of a moving truck I illegally got in the coldest months of winter. It was so fucking cold, I get uncomfortable just thinking about it. Unrelated to the truck I caught a bunch of charges leaving me 1 charge away from basically not being able to leave Canada.