Too often, people long for a relationship because they can't stand being alone. They convince themselves they need love and affection from a significant other to truly prosper. I rarely ever see someone talking about the many positives of being single and how it can actually be more beneficial to you.
I see people posting way too much personal stuff online to get opinions from strangers and I think it's having a negative affect on how we, as a whole, deal with problems. People freely post conversations/arguments they have with their significant others on social media. They post videos of their siblings crying because they got bullied at school. They write paragraphs on how someone at the grocery store was rude to them. Instead of building thick skin and learning how to handle problems, they want the opinion of thousands of people for retweets and attention. Why are people so comfortable with not having private matters anymore or dealing with the confrontation appropriately?
Something that I see a lot is how much people play the blame game and never take accountability for things they caused to go wrong in their own lives. I know life is hard. I know there are things that we can't control, but there are things that are in your control that you can start working on now.
I grew up in a very religious household where my parents took church and Catholicism very seriously. I stopped being religious around 13 years old because I felt like my beliefs didn't align with the Catholic beliefs I was raised around. When my father passed away when I was 16, I felt so angry at "God" for letting this happen to me. I didn't believe in a God that would allow world disasters to happen. I didn't believe a "God" would allow so much corruption to happen to innocent people. I went through a lot of other things that kids shouldn't have to go through and the more I thought about those things the more angry I got. I gave myself the title of being an atheist for years but it never felt right. I felt like I had to believe in something because I felt misguided. I didn't want to associate with any religion because from my experience, religion was toxic the way my family would use it criticize and demean others, including myself.
I was scrolling on Instagram and saw that Snoop Dogg had posted the title of this post. It got me thinking about how easy it is to complain about things we don't have, instead of actively working to achieve the things we want. I've learned in my adult life that it takes a lot of work to get the things we want. Everything seems to be a step by step process and sometimes it takes a long time to make progress. I've also learned that there is ALWAYS a way. It's about how hard you're willing to work to find that way and not giving up easily when things don't go as planned. If you know you could be doing more, then do more.
"Free thinking" seems to be the new phrase that's trending but the people who use that term the most are people who I really don't consider to be free thinkers. The reason why is explained below. Again, this is my view on what free thinking is.
I liked that post about positive thoughts, believing in yourself and lessons out of struggle.
I wanted to share my experience.
So I'm bipolar. I didn't know I was till I got diagnosed. All I knew was that I was destroying every aspect of my life and I couldn't control it. It used to make me bawl my eyes out. I'd always be really angry at the world for everything I was going through.
No one really knew what was happening to me. The only thing that was apparent is that I was always fucked up on something. I'd self-medicate for the highs and lows with different drugs but at the same time that would catapult my manias and my lows.
This bipolar shit has sent me to hell and back. I've been on the hospital bed with the doctor calling my dad saying "your son is dying." I've ruined countless friendships, couldn't keep a single credit in 2 years of schooling, I was homeless living out of a moving truck I illegally got in the coldest months of winter. It was so fucking cold, I get uncomfortable just thinking about it. Unrelated to the truck I caught a bunch of charges leaving me 1 charge away from basically not being able to leave Canada.